January 2010
34 posts
all around me;
I can feel God all around me.
when i walk outside to see the beautiful white blanket of snow that makes everything look breathtaking,
I can feel God all around me.
when i see a daddy holding a little girls hand as they walk across the street to her favorite ice cream shop,
I can feel God all around me.
when im walking along side a quiet, peaceful lake in the middle of Oklahoma only hearing...
“it sucks to lose people you love, but there are two types of people you will...”
uneven heartbeat;
in two weeks my parents will be heading to michigan to see heart specialists for my dad. he has something called atrial fib and has been dealing with it for several years now. he has had countless procedures and been to the ER to many times to count. i swear the nurses know him by name now before they even see his chart.
anyways
our family and my dad has been struggling with this for a while,...
prayer for friends;
God I just want to thank you for amazing friends, new and old. You have blessed me with people that fill my life with laughter, joy, and love. The memories that i have made with all of these amazing people are just the beginning of the four best years of my life. I can’t wait to see what you have in store for me and my friends. Without them I honestly think I would have gone crazy. They keep...
the end;
just so you know, i don’t hate you anymore.
i forgave you a long time ago, though you may not think so.
“and for the first time I don’t want to cry because I am missing you, now I...”
fear, pain and all the emotions in between;
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
These past few days haven’t been the best for me to be completely honest. My life here in...
Please Don't Promise Me Forever;
Please don’t promise me forever.
I want us to love each other one day at a time…
…and string all of those days together like the precious things they are…
…instead of trying too hard and promising too much.
Please dont expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.
But it will only be...
relapse;
sometimes i wonder how long this will last
how long will i stay in my emotional remission
how long till my next relapse.
i feel okay for a while until something triggers it
a song, a movie, it doesn’t take much.
then everything comes flooding back
with a vengeance i feel the sting of your words, the empty i love you’s, the meaningless forever and always’.
is this what...
forgotten passion;
wow.
thats all i can say about these past few days. its been so long since i have been apart of a band of that quality and dedication and passion that i completely forgot what it felt like. ive been apart of elite groups of musicians before, but then it was all about the competition and being better than the person sitting next to you, but somehow the intercollegiate band didnt feel like that. it...
life is full of choices.
I choose to live a life after Christ. take it or leave it, thats just how it is.
I will not in any way push my beliefs on you or put you down because you live a different lifestyle.
so spare me.
don’t try to make it seem like i think i am better than you because I don’t.
im not anywhere near perfect and i realized that a long time ago.
so stop looking for...
just a little bit of happiness;
walking through campus today with the sting of the cold air hitting my face i realized how much i have fallen in love with oklahoma. i swear this place has healing powers that i never saw coming. between the best friends and the always on the go lifestyle of a college student and the first taste of independence, i don’t really know how i lived without this place and these people for 18...
young love?
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is a word used in today’s society way to...
“With all creation I sing, praise to the King of Kings, to you the only wise...”
heart day;
valentines day sucks. just gonna throw that out there right now. it’s not enjoyable watching happy go lucky couples celebrate a day especially made for them. and i mean i know i hate it cause i dont have the privilege of being one of those couples, its not just the corny gifs or the nauseating stuffed animals that are bigger than I am. I never really understood why all of the ridiculous ugly...
“Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an...”
– 1 Timothy 4:12
2 am prayer
God please help me focus on your love for me, and not this earthly love that so often disappoints. I get so caught up in having my own fairy tale love story that I forget that I am already living out my love story with you. When everyone around me abandons me you are still there, when I feel most alone you are still there, and when nothing around me seems real anymore you are still here. Thank you...
Haiti Earthquake
As many of you heard, yesterday a catastrophic earthquake shook the poorest country in the western hemisphere. Haiti before this earthquake has endured countless hurricanes but nothing as devastating as this. The fatalities are still unknown and how much damage that was actually done is hard to determine because of the state the country was in before.
This is also the country that I am attending...
“We need to stop giving people excuses not to believe in God. You’ve...”
– Francis Chan
future plans;
Tomorrow begins a new day, a new chapter, a new beginning.
Heading back to Oklahoma City where I have wonderful, encouraging friends, where i fell back in love with my savior, and made memories to last a lifetime. And this is only the start.
Life here in Texas just isn’t the same anymore, whether it be from a few lost friends, my damaged heart, or me just growing out of this little town,...
a lesson from Oprah
“For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.”
1 Timothy 6:10
Last week I watched an Oprah segment on people in the world that are happier than Americans. They had families from all over the world, from countries I have never heard of and countries that seem to have nothing...
Jesus answered, "I am the way, the truth, and the...
The way, the truth, and the life. Such simple words yet so hard for us to really understand and grasp as humans. How can one man be so much to all of the world? How can one man be the road to a righteous life, the real truth in a lying world, and the beautiful life that gives reason to all? Though it is true that Jesus was simply a man, miraculously he was divinely God at the exact same time. He...
